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Name: alyssa
Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 10/25/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: weird, artsy-fartsy, crazy ass, hot as hell, big bumbum, but a great booty shaker nonetheless, that's me
Expertise: Being a cool kiddo?
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
11/17/2003
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| 01. give me a nickname & explain why you picked it
02. am i loveable?
03. how long have you known me?
04. when and how did we first meet?
05. what was your first impression?
06. do you still think that way about me now?
07. if i was an ice cream flavor, which would i be & why?
08. do you think i'll get married?
09. what makes me happy?
10. what makes me sad?
11. what song reminds you of me?
12. if you could give me anything what would it be?
13. do you consider me a good friend?
14. when's the last time you saw me?
15. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. would you make a move on me?
17. describe me in one word:
18. do you think our friendship is getting stronger or weaker?
19. do you feel that you could talk to me about anything?
20. do i cross your mind at least two times a day? | | |
| number of...
:x: piercings | six
:x: tattoos | none
:x: height | 5'1"
:x: shoe size | 7 1/2 - 8
:x: hair color | brown with blond and red highlights
:x: siblings | two.
last...
:x: movie you rented | Blue Crush (long time ago)
:x: movie you bought | Uh.. I dont know
:x: song you listened to | Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit
:x: song that was stuck in your head | That damn milkshake song
:x: cd you bought | Uh.. Thursday
:x: cd you listened to | Dashboard Confessional
:x: person you've called | Autumn
:x: person that's called you | Kelly
:x: tv show you've watched | That 70s Show
do...
:x: you have a crush on someone | more than a crush
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else | who doesnt.
:x: you think about suicide | sometimes.
:x: you believe in online dating | losers.
:x: others find you attractive | not really
:x: you want more piercings | yeah
:x: you drink | uh yeah i dont know whatever i have
:x: you do drugs | no, drugs are stupid.
:x: you smoke | no, smoking is stupid.
:x: you like cleaning | depends
:x: you like roller coasters | yeah
:x: you write in cursive or print | i mix them together.
for or against...
:x: long distance relationships | it kinda sucks... but im kinda in one right now.
:x: using someone | depends... if its for revenge, then for. anything else... then against.
:x: suicide | usually against, but everyone has their moments.
:x: killing people | against although i joke around ab killing people
:x: teenage smoking | against.
:x: doing drugs | against.
:x: driving drunk | against.
:x: gay/lesbian relationships | they can do what they want.
:x: soap operas | life is one big fucking soap opera
favorite...
:x: food | I dont know
:x: song | The Brilliant Dance, Behind Blue Eyes, Someday
:x: thing to do | drive, write
:x: thing to talk about | whatevers on my mind
:x: sports | i dont play sports.. but bmx guys are hot lol
:x: drinks | pepsi white grap juice and yeah
:x: clothes | whatevers comfy
:x: movies | just married, the new guy
:x: singer | hm
:x: holiday | halloween
have you...
:x: ever cried over a girl | i dont know
:x: ever cried over a boy | yeah
:x: ever lied to someone | unfortunately.
:x: ever been in a fist fight | haha, yes.
:x: ever been arrested | no
what...
:x: shampoo do you use | Thermasilk
:x: shoes do you wear | Vans
:x: are you scared of | being alone
number...
:x: of times i have been in love? | once still am
:x: of times i have had my heart broken? | enough
:x: of hearts i have broken? | dont know
:x: of girls i have kissed? | next question
:x: of boys i have kissed? | beats me
:x: of girls i've slept with? | none
:x: of boys i've slept with? | one
:x: of drugs taken illegally? | two :: regret
:x: of people i would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? | not as many as i would like.
:x: of people i consider my enemies? | quite a few.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? | i dont know
:x: of scars on my body? | too many.
:x: of things in my past that i regret? | a few things
favorite...
:x: disney movie | Finding Nemo, Ice Age, or The Emperors New Groove
:x: word | splooge
:x: nickname | def. not squirming dingleberry
:x: guy name | jordan. brandt. and yeah
:x: girl name | winter. brodie. and.. yeah
:x: eye color | i like green but i could get lost in jons baby blues..
:x: flower | black roses..
:x: piercing | i like lip piercings
:x: actor | ashton kutcher
:x: actress | i dont know
do you think you are...
:x: pretty | not really
:x: funny | i have my moments
:x: hot | not really
:x: friendly | if i like you.
:x: amusing | sure.
:x: ugly | most of the time
:x: loveable | everyone is loveable
:x: caring | yeah but i need to work on it
:x: sweet | i can be.
:x: dorky | definately | | |
| - Behind Blue EyesIve fucked up Jon... Ive fucked up.. forgive me | | |
| - I Hate Everything About You
Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give you.
(Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts so much it's like choking.. choking?)
I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.
I can give you death with the look upon my face.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no good bye.
Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
(Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much it's like choking down the embers of a great place.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have..
I'll never have.. I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that i kills me to breathe you in..
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much it's like choking down the embers of a great palce.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipidsky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down.. come down. I cherish you.. I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me..
just say you would do the same..
just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.)
Ah today I got up and had to look for my dog. I got stuck in the mud. I was pissed last night and so far today hasnt been much of a good day either. I think I'm going to Autumns in a little bit so maybe I'll get in a better mood. Jons gone all day today but *shrugs* I don't really want to talk to him. I love the song above. So pretty. | | |
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